russoodle wrote:Hey nooby, you viking
Just wanted to say i'm thinking of you and wishing you lots of luck with your treatment...stay strong, matey.
Too long you don't have to read. Just sharing my thoughts.
Hi Russ, Much appreciated that you have you in your friendly thoughts.
As you remember we had those Pphone chat talk. I stopped using it
due to my brain too slow to find spelling of words within me
and when I finally did the whole group had chaged subject again.
But I loved hearing your friendly voice and all the other guys active.
Send my appreciation to all of them for their patience with my
"Northern Euope" accent. Haha me and our politicians getting into
talking English sounds really funny. Sometimes or not even possible
to get what we say. one need to find the way to talk.
Like when our immigrants tryingto learn to talk Swedish
coming from their language Example. "gula" in Swedish
means very different things with short or long vocals and
which vocal you stress.
Gula as in yellow or gulla as in cuddle really friendly.
The first one with long vocal "u" the other short and emphasized?
But if your jealous then you don't want to gulla with that
somebody special then you more likely want them to stop
depending on how upset you got.
I am too jealous to cuddle
when I get upset. Too bad for my estimated sense of self worth
I lose it too easily. A bad sign that I have. Too low self esteem
Haha when I tell those that think they know me that I seem to have
severe Borderline personality then they tone it down and say
that I misdiagnose myself.
But when I check up on the criterias for BPD again then it fit
all of my behavior much better than what ASD does.
Then what Asperger does. I noticed how different I were
when I join the other with the ASD diagnose. I cared about
many things they did not care at all about
I showed much more empathy then what they did.
Had I failed to show it then I felt guilty while almost all of
the others with the ASD could not care less. "Why should I "
they asked me.
Because to show empathy is what makes us human I told them.
Who cares they returned the answer. "Who cares" They told me.
And some of them showed no tendency to even care and they
just stared at me with disbelief or they walked away.
But I do share a lot of criteria for ASD too. Failure to look other
in their eyes
I am "obsessed" by Special interest and the obsession is very strong.
From me say 10 years to maybe me 40 totally absorbed with
Shortwave electronics and other such "Hobby" Nothing came out of it.
Jut now it is "religion" and what "God is all about"
I fail to get my interpretation approved of though.
Okay I talk too much if you did read then try to see it
as my way to do self therapy.DBT on BPD.
Hehe so many of these shorthand for the long Latin words.
